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|Sunday, April 12th, 2009|
|Happy Easter!! Happy Birthday!! ... and sleep paralysis?
Happy Easter Everyone and Happy Birthday Tomoka!
Has anyone ever experienced sleep paralysis? From what I understand, what happens is when you are in REM sleep (the part where you dream) your body releases hormones that paralyzes your body. This is a good thing because otherwise you would act out your dreams and likely cause self-injury. But with sleep paralysis, your mind wakes up (you can open your eyes and see) when it should be in REM mode, so your body is still paralyzed. And because it's in REM mode, you're kind of half asleep, so although you can see where you are, you are also likely to hallucinate images and sounds.
It's pretty frightening. Yesterday when I decided to take a nap, I woke up and realized I couldn't move. I was really struggling with myself to really wake up. It kinda feels like when you keep nodding off to sleep. You're awake for a few seconds and try to move, and then start losing yourself back to sleep. But then you wake up again! No! Don't sleep! GET UP!! The worst part of it is you get this feeling of danger, like someone is in the room with you, watching you, or trying to keep you down, which makes you want to wake up even more. I remember really struggling to get ANY movement, so i focused on my fingers. I could get them to move just a bit, but then I felt like someone grabbed my hand and forced it down! This really freaked me out. It took me a minute to realize that what I was feeling was just my own fingers touching themselves. ^^;
I think I fought this sleep paralysis for about 15 minutes, but that's just a guess. From the research I did on it following this episode, it looks like 8 minutes is usually as long as it lasts. I also learned that it's pretty common. About 30% of the population experience it at some time. And there is quite a few folklore about the cause being ghosts, witches, demons, etc. In fact, when I told Ryota (Japanese) and Kwon (Korean) about it, they both mentioned similar legends. It's pretty interesting. Although I tend to follow the science point of view on this, I have to admit, I was a bit scared to go back to sleep.
Ways to help avoid sleep paralysis:
-DON'T sleep on your back
-Have a routine sleeping schedule (naps are bad)
-Don't be stressed (yeah... right...)
-Get enough sleep
-Don't get too much sleep
So i'm interested! Any of you experience this too?? Current Mood: scared
|Thursday, March 12th, 2009|
|The craziest stressful studying weeks of my life
I finally took my comprehensive exams earlier this week. Basically what it was was a 3 hour essay exam which takes about 12 courses (aka every course I've ever had in my graduate school career) and picks one question from each. Problem is, no one knows what questions will be asked. So we had to study 12 courses in their entirety to prepare for this 3 hour exam. The good news is that I only have to answer 6 questions, but not all of the questions will neccesarily apply to courses I've taken, so I still had to study EVERYTHING. Not only that, but we have to be able to site sources where we could. It was literally a requirement for some questions. Y. U. K.
Anyways, it's over. Now I just have to stress about the results (if I fail, I have to take oral exams -> where I stand in front of 3 members of the faculty and have to answer any question they throw out to me on the fly... Yeah. REALLY don't wanna do those.)
Now, I'm studying for the Praxis exams, which I need to pass for state liscensure so that I can legally get a job (something I really have to start looking into).
Not a fun week.
And to top it off, I also had an exam for class and a paper due this week. It's pretty much the week from hell for graduate students. I will be SOO glad to be done with this. My supervisor at the hospital has been laughing about this. She's always telling me how ridiculus all the busy work we get in grad school, and she's totally right. Although I'll still have to take continuing education courses throughout my career, the presenters will absolutely clearly state what I need to know instead of giving extraneous details. Plus I'll get paid ^^
Ug. I needed to vent. Current Mood: cranky
|Tuesday, January 27th, 2009|
I bought a bass guitar. I've always loved music and have secretly wanted to play guitar/bass for a long time, so when Ryota came over Christmas we went looking. I kind of chickened out at first because I wouldn't know where to start on picking out a bass and the guy we talked to wasn't very helpful.
But then last week I called up the Guitar Center near Tucson and he was really helpful. But basses aren't cheap and I'm certainly not rich, so I mulled it over. When I talked to Ryota about it, he was very supportive. He even offered to pay (I don't think I'll let him though)! His reasoning was that I need a hobby. Haha...
Then, when I checked out the website, they had a 10% off coupon. So before I knew it, I was down at the store buying a bass. It's a pretty dark blue ^^
It might take me a while to play it well, but it sounds so nice. I really like it. Except the cord that connects to the amp is stuck ><; So I may be taking it in to be looked at later this week. boo...
Clinic-wise, still have not officially started yet. I did all my paperwork, drug testing, and immunization stuff. But they forgot to do the background check. So now I'm waiting around for them to contact me again. fun fun. I hope I start soon so I can figure out hospital or school jobwise. I need to start applying!!
|Sunday, January 11th, 2009|
Just thought we'd go look, but no, we actually Bought a wedding dress already. We haven't even picked a date yet ><;
But the REAL dress won't come in for another 8 weeks, so I guess it's good we got a head start incase it needs alterations. It's kinda hard to believe this is really happening. I can't post pics tho, just in case Ryota sees.
Tomorrow I head back for my last semester!! It's gonna be so busy t.t I have 2 big exams to graduate and be able to legally work, on top of a busy class schedule. Just hope they assign me to a hospital this semester. I REALLY want to work in a hospital.
|Sunday, January 4th, 2009|
Well most of you have probably already noticed on facebook, but I thought I'd post it here too.
Ryota and I are officially engaged ^^
None of the details are official though. We're thinking about getting married in Hawaii, as it is in between Japan and the US mainland. Probably be a pretty small wedding. I'll let u know more details as we figure them out ^^;
In the meantime, we had a lot of fun together for Christmas, although New Years was pretty uneventful. We went to Las Vegas with my parents and George for 2 days, went to the movies, played putt-putt, did some shopping, playing cards, ping-pong, and going for walks/hikes. It was really nice. He left yesterday, and I miss him terribly. The first week away from one another is always the worst.
In other news, One more semester and I graduate (hopefully!) with a Masters Degree!! Then I can finally get a pay check \^o^/ and start paying off my debt i.i
Thanks pretty much it for now. I will post pics of the ring after it gets resized. It's a pretty blue sapphire ^^
I love u Ryota!!
|Wednesday, September 24th, 2008|
|The bad luck girl
Let's just say a series of unforunate events has taken place, some of which u probably heard about already.
Recipe for a bad couple of weeks:
-Mix 1-vandalized car with a $300 repair fee
-Sift in a number of inappropriate calls from a client
-Add shock of not being able to see boyfriend at Christmas
-Pour in one heaping cup of grad school drama and a scoop of drama seeking friend
-Mix in overcrowded house
Stir until mental breakdown occurs.
To make matters worse, I received news of the death of a classmate of mine from highschool.
To be honest, I didn't know her well. But she did go to highschool with me and was close friends with a lot of my close friends. It's really sad... I feel a little shaken up and i don't know what I should do to mourn properly. I know these things happen, but it's different when it happens to someone you know. Life is so short...
Rest in Peace Erin. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Hopefully next time i'll have something pleasant to share.
|Saturday, September 13th, 2008|
|a post just cuz i havent lately
Lots of stuff have happened (no surprises there) since my last post. Grad school drama, client drama, money drama, boy drama, watching dramas. U know, the usual. Nothing so serious (although the money thing could have been...)
My roommates r really nice. No drama there. But they are so young and i still get jealous that they both can hang out with their boyfriends practically everyday when I can't with mine *sigh*. What can u do? しょうがないね。
Most of my friends in the grad program are talking about looking for jobs. I still dont know if I will be applying in the US or not, let alone where in the US. Have a little time before i have to decide tho...
I have two placements this year: One at an elementary school where I'll give evals (test vocab, pronunciation, and give language samples). The other is at a place for young adults with Autism ><; I haven't been to the latter yet, but from what I hear, they need to give these young adults some sex education. Young adults with autism living in apartments almost independently = an overt sex environment. (Ex: Person A doesn't know how to pleasure himself. Person B offers to instruct. B ends up jacking off A in semi-public place) Not sure how this is gonna go, but I'm sure I'll come out with ALOT of interesting stories to share!
Oh! I thought of something fun to write about! Went to the local theatre that plays cult movies the other day. They showed The Princess Bride, my favorite movie!! The theatre was packed! Someone came dressed as Westly, and everyone chanted the "Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya..." line. It was fun ^^ Next week is Pee Wee's Adventure, and later this month they will have The Big Wii-bowski (Play bowling on Wii with the theatre screen). Don't think I'll go, but it's a cool idea I think.
I guess that's all for now.
|Saturday, July 19th, 2008|
|I gotta have more cowbell!
Felt like it was time for a post.
Summer session is almost over ^^ And altho I'm really excited for it to end (especially because that means i'll be in Japan), i'm kinda sad to see it go. It was nice to just have clinic and not classes on top of it. Although I was still busy this summer, the girls, guy, and i got to hang out more, which was nice. We probably won't have time for that come fall ><;
So yeah! Japan!! We leave next Saturday and i'm very excited *^^* altho i am a little nervous to see Ryota's parents as MY parents will be there as well and Ryota WONT be there. I hope my Japanese skill is good enuf to translate. But since i'm the only one who knows both English and Japanese, I can translate however I want ^^ haha... "Mom, Dad, they said u guys are fabulous! And they love me! They think I'm the best thing that's ever happened for them and Ryota!" Not sure my parents would buy that tho, lol
Apparently George signed up for another year in Japan, and he wants us to bring him his guitar. And while I understand it's his, this is his 2nd guitar and he's played it maybe 3x in the past 6-8 years (his 1st one was acoustic, which he also never played). And now we have to carry it around Japan for him. oh well.
On the brite side: Tonite is another Rock Band Party ^^ And I'm in charge of dessert ^p^
|Tuesday, June 10th, 2008|
|So starts summer session...
Had 3 weeks off before summer session, spent mostly at home, dreading taking first year comps. Came to the new house for the last week, and have now started the summer semester. I don't wanna bore u with too much details, but here's a list of things i've had to deal with in the past week:
-a fly investation ><;,
-A bounced check from my roomie to the landlord, which i then had to pay for as she's in Japan...
-Landlord being upset that we let an exchange student stay here for 2 weeks, as she had no place to live
-Someone backing into my car
-Comps (exams AFTER final exams: one essay question for every class i've taken this year, which determines if i can continue my grad degree)
-Comps are over!! and i think i did ok
-the car is barely scratched, but i still have to talk to my parents about what happened
-I have gotten rid/killed the flies, so it's not a big issue anymore
-I can still live in the house despite landlord drama
And even better news:
-Saw Sex and the City with a friend(though I wasn't that impressed)
-Discovered crunchyroll.com and wasted much time watching foreign dramas and movies
-Fell in love with Wonderful Life (Korean Drama)
Can't wait to see what the rest of this semester will bring ><;
|Sunday, April 20th, 2008|
|Wish I could have been there!
Saw pictures of BG's Ohanami party! Looks like you guys had a lot of fun. Wish I could have been there with u! I really miss hanging out with u all. There's not that many friends here that I can be silly with.
Did help out with the Japanese Association here last weekend at Spring Fling (Kind of like a carnival). We had a booth selling Japanese Curry. We probably would have gotten more sales had we been selling Teriyaki chicken, but ah well. I had a lot of fun at any rate! My job was cashier/advertiser. Mostly yelling at everyone who passed by "Japanese Curry!" "Healthy & Delicious!" "Good for the body, mind, and soul!" "Irashaimase!" At one point I actually gave a theatrical performance. AKA I bought my own curry, stood in front of the booth, and started yelling "Oh My God! This is the BEST curry I've every had! Wow!" haha... yeah yeah, i know i'm pathetic. But we all had a good time.
Other than that. Not too much to report. Busy with classes and clinic. Tuesdays are now classified as "No Pants Tuesdays" After one of my clients decided jumping on the trampoline w/o pants is more fun. Oh, and another client asked for my cell number. Kinda awkward. But can't really blame him. I AM hot stuff. J/k lol. Naw, he had a brain injury. They tend to display inappropriate behavior from time to time. I just told him to call the clinic if he needs to contact me. Hopefully he got the hint.
Oh, and did I mention my parents are coming with me to Japan this summer?? Should be awesome ^^ I have to brush up on my Japanese so I can play tour guide.
|Monday, April 7th, 2008|
|If only I really was a Japanese pop star...
Wow. The last 3 entries of friends on LJ are either sad or frustrated. And I have one of my own to boot. I guess everyone is having a bad time. not cool.
Mine is about Grad school, yet again. Am I just wasting my time? Seriously. I'm not happy, so what am I doing? Mostly I'm doing it cuz i don't know what else to do. Maybe I should just be a cookie chef. I would like that. I could LIVE on cookies, just not sure I could make a LIVING on them ><;
|Thursday, March 13th, 2008|
|Tuesday, March 11th, 2008|
|Harry, Serena, & co.
I had a weird weird dream. And it was one of those that felt so real that when u wake up, ur still not sure it WAS a dream.
And it was about Harry Potter & gang, along with Sailor Moon and gang. Apparently, Voldermort had a thing for human form Luna ><; And since she was in love with Artemis, Voldermort was soo upset over his unrequianted love, that he tried to destroy the world. Wow. And it took me a good 10 min. to convince myself it wasn't real.
What's wrong with me??
p.s. I haven't done ANYTHING with either Harry Potter or Sailor Moon in Forever! Not sure what brought this on ^^;
|Saturday, March 8th, 2008|
|Saturday, February 23rd, 2008|
|fingers in danger day??
I feel compelled to write, since I haven't in a long time.
Today has been 'fingers in danger day.' lol. I burnt one on my flattening iron, slammed one on my desk drawer, and cut one closing the window. what the heck?! Ah well, i guess i'll live. lol.
Other than that, life is pretty ok. i have my good days and my bad days. Mostly just focused on surviving grad school.
yesterday was Japanese Association's karaoke party. They borrowed my karaoke station and added 20 songs to it ^^ unfortunately, I don't know most of them and the ones i do are japanese rap songs... which doesn't help me much >< It was fun tho. Ate okonomiyaki (kansai style) and even tako-yaki!! Yum ^p^
Now it's time to meet some friends and get ice cream!!! Hopefully my fingers won't fall off before i get there...
|Saturday, January 26th, 2008|
|started up again
So this past week the school's speech path clinic opened up again and all chaos broke loose. Actually, it went well, but there's just sooo much prep that needed to be done, especially for first sessions. I think I have something like 16 clients?? So that's a lot of files to read and planning to do. Still have to decide on some objectives. fun fun. Basically, i'm living at the speech building.
what else... I'm a year older. But no party like last time with Connie and Eriko. That was fun ^^ I like sharing bday parties with friends. On the bright side though, I got to spend a lot of time with my baby (dog) over the weekend, so that was great.
Had a big fight with a close friend. Don't really wanna get into it, but not sure if it can get fixed. It's such a horrible feeling ...
Ryota and my "plan" changed a bit. Which isn't unusual, but anyways; The plan is that I finish grad school, he changes jobs this spring/summer to a company that has American ties. I move to Japan after graduation for a few years, and then we move back to the US. I kinda like this plan. I could use a few more years in Japan to sharpen up my Japanese skills and being in Japan is always fun (usually). I just wish I didn't have to wait 2 more years ^^; ah well.
And cuz I wanna leave on a fun note, here's a random fact:
It's illegal to hunt camels in Arizona.
|Sunday, January 20th, 2008|
So for the long weekend, came back home to dog-sit while the rents go to Vegas. It's been alright, but I just can't get motivated to do much h/w or preparing for clients.
In one of my classes, my teacher said something that kinda bothers me. NOt cuz it was inappropriate, but just because it's one of those hard to take phrases. She said: Don't think that life starts in one or two years, once u graduate. Life is now.
><; Am I wasting my time/life?? If I mean, if I'm not happy, then, what am I doing?
As a child I always felt that the future u're supposed to lead would just come to you. But it's a lot harder than that.
Ok, this may be my last posted riddle. But it's a classic.
This thing all things devours:
Birds, beasts, trees, flowers;
Gnaws iron, bites steel;
Grinds hard stones to meal;
Slays king, ruins town,
And beats high mountain down.
|Wednesday, January 16th, 2008|
So first official day back at Grad school. Looks to be like another crazy-busy semester, but at least I won't be on Eval team = MUCH less report writing and learning about tests. so that's a yay ^^
I do have more clients though, but that's ok. They're mostly adults too, so I can figure out if that works for me or not.
I'm trying to stay positive and productive. Really hoping I can step up my game this sem.
Answer to the last riddle was "A Casket." Not sure if u guys are really into riddles... But I thought I'd give another one.
What gets wetter as it dries? Current Mood: blah
|Monday, January 14th, 2008|
|Grad Students: We're not bad ppl, we just make poor life choices
Saw this group on facebook, lol. Have to agree tho. Hate grad school. Heading back to it tomorrow morning ><;
So winter break was pretty good. Saw George and it went pretty ok. Made lots (and ate most) of Christmas cookies. Hey, that's what the holidays are all about right? Cookies!
And of course, went to Japan. And I've barely smiled since I got back. Seriously. It's hard only being able to see ur BF 2x a year. But much delicious food was et, purikura was took, and I even tried my first Onsen.
It was hot.
So I'm just gonna close my eyes and pretend and I was back there. I hate sounding so emo, but i really do hate my life right now. Grad school sux. It's too bad life doesn't have a fast-forward button.
And just for fun! Riddle time *^^*
The one who invented it doesn't want it.
The one who bought it doesn't need it.
The one who needs it doesn't know it.
What is IT? Current Mood: boo...
|Wednesday, December 12th, 2007|
|just for fun ^^
Meme from Debbie
Go to the Wikipedia home page and click random article. That is your band's name.
Click random article again; that is your album name.
Click random article 10-15 more times; those are the tracks on your album.
Band name: Naas [is that a variation of Nasu/Eggplant?]
4.Fifth Third Field (Toledo)
5.University of Pittsburgh School of Medicene
6.Joseph A. Mower
8.Humanist Association of Ireland
13.Skorm and Avo
Wow. My album is full of guys names. Sounds like I wrote most of my songs about ex-boyfriends ><;